(Yes, that’s a Gossip Girl quote. Don’t judge…)
Who are any of us, really? Don’t we change on the regular, from clothes to weight to outlook, even to personality? I read somewhere recently that we completely change every ten years. So, the person I was even ten years ago is no longer similar to the person I am today.
Well, yeah. Duh.
I don’t know about you all, but I have changed so much over the past decade that my younger self wouldn’t recognize my current self. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I started on a journey of transformation when I hit the big 4-0, eight years ago. I recently had my 48th bday, Hello, Scorpio, and am finally in a place in my life where I am comfortable, confidant, calm, and, finally, at peace with life as it is. I vow to lead an authentic life from this point on. There is a lot of thought, feeling, meaning, and substance behind that statement, but one minor aspect of living a more authentic life is turning away from the video, and returning to the written word.
What does this mean? I’m bringing my blog back, baby. I used to write a blog titled, “On Being an Introvert.” That was a very cathartic blog for me to write at the time as it helped me get to know myself, the challenges I faced as an introvert (and still face), and how to become confidant in my true nature. I’ve missed that blog, so I’m bringing it back.
I don’t have a title yet for this blog…maybe The Musings of T’Lea…but I want to get this first blog posted, so here we are.
Who is T’Lea? It’s short for Tracy Lea. A handful of friends, and the hubs call me this…
On this first post of the reinvention of my personal blog (videos, be damned), I’m going to reintroduce myself. I’ll start with rapid-fire points, and go from there.
1. I was born and raised in West Virginia.
2. I recently lost my soulmate dog, Edward Cullen.
3. I have three children.
4. At times I have trouble being present because I get so lost in my thoughts.
5. I am an empath.
6. I am highly sensitive.
7. I am an introvert, and this has created a lot of angst and social difficulty throughout my life.
8. My favorite drink is coffee.
9. My second favorite drink is Sauvignon Blanc.
10. I used to be a gymnast and a cheerleader, but now struggle with weight gain and balance.
11. I have dark hair and blue eyes.
12. Once I cut my hair so short, I looked exactly like my brother, and started wearing earrings and makeup daily to seem more feminine.
13. I’ve been in several fender-benders, and two major car crashes (no one got hurt).
14. My parents are divorced.
15. I am married.
16. I don’t speak another language, but I did study a summer in France.
17. I am currently experiencing burn-out as a mental health therapist, and am taking a break. Therapists need self-care time too.
18. I’ve been an avid reader all my life and even sleep with my kindle instead of a teddy bear.
19. I study everything about you when we talk. Sorry about that.
20. I do love people, especially my family and my friends, but I have great difficulty in not defaulting to being alone whenever given the choice.
That’s enough for now. Those are all stream of consciousness things that literally just poured out of my head this early morning. It was a fun exercise.
So, as I draw this first blog to a close, I’ll conclude by saying I’m so sick of watching videos, and videos being the default for everything, that I want to bring back the written word. Even if no one reads these blogs, it’s important to me to put words to paper. Maybe in a future post, I’ll write about the merits of reading books vs watching videos, but that’s not today’s post. Today’s post is short, sweet, informative, inconsequential, and…finished.